time to start again....

I used to do this often; sometimes multiple times a day....in this no man's land called live journal.  And I truly had some inspiring thoughts that sprang to life due to the minimal act of simply releasing them from my head.  So I start again.  I am pretty thrilled about it as the other half of me that is male has started traveling and I find myself staying awake and swimming with thoughts that somehow squelched themselves by the simplicity of having someone in bed next to me.

Distractions.  Blog One.  I have traveled the past couple of years of my life alongside one of the most truly passionate and motivated people I have ever encountered.  At this point, I imagine eyes rolling and people saying various things in their heads about how superficial and unrealistic I must be.  You don't know me anymore.  If you would like to reacquaint yourself....I'm sure you could find plenty of platforms to make your judgements on but mostly I would like to say to you............nothing at all.

Back to it.  The man around the house...led me to a new life.  A life of freedom to be myself.  He is not my savior.  I do not worship the ground he walks on.  He brought me brutal honesty in a sugar-coated unrealistic existence that used to be my life.  What does that feel like you ask?  At times devastating...and in others....pure bliss.  Its like getting ahead of the game.

and yes.... i love him.

I work A LOT.  I like it. Its exhausting....but its mine.  I have no boss.  I have employees.  If you would have said to me after highschool that I would be self-employed running a bar living in an amazing house with someone 20 years older than me....i would have been so insulted and would have immediately told you that I had plans to save the world.  In a sense...I feel that I am.  Not with mission trips to Argentina or with a city wide rally to turn your eyes upon Jesus.....but with honest living...lots of love...and a heart of gold.

this is the beginning of reminding myself who I want to be...and realizing each day that I am still moving in the right direction....

stay tuned.